Illimitable Until Death c0

Translator notes:

This novel has been dropped for a few months now so I’ll just post mine.
Note that I have changed many thing such as the MC name, the system etc. that I think more fitting to the story.

“What makes someone a normal person?”

This question can be very funny or very philosophical.

The funny reason is simple, because people don’t ask such a question for no reason.

If one day, someone around you suddenly asks such a question, then your first reaction is to laugh, right?

Because a normal person would definitely not ask such a question so suddenly.

The philosophical reason is even simpler. Simply from an objective perspective that such a question can become a contentious debate.

But such a debatable question will never be brought up as homework until high school.

However, Houri raised such a question to sensei on the first day of first grade.

That year, Houri was only eight years old.

It is conceivable that when such a question emerged from the mouth of an eight-year-old child, how awkward and confused the primary school sensei on the podium while being surrounded by a group of naive children.

From this point of view alone, Houri is no longer a normal person.

Such a question should not appear from an eight-year-old child.

However, no matter from what perspective, Houri is actually a normal person.

When children of the same age are playing, Houri is also playing.

When children of the same age are in trouble, Houri is also in trouble.

When children of the same age are innocent, Houri is also innocent.

When children of the same age were childishly farting, Houri also childishly farting.

In other words, Houri is neither precocious nor abnormal, he is a normal child both physically and mentally.

But as an eight-year-old on the first day of elementary school, Houri could not help asking such a question.

Because ignorant Houri knew his only abnormality that was different from the rest.

That year Houri was only seven years old.

Until the age of seven, Houri grew up as an ordinary child.

At that time, because the parents needed to work and support the family all day long, the person who was most often with Houri was grandpa.

Grandpa was very fond of Houri.

When Houri wants to play, grandpa will accompany Houri.

When Houri was scolded by his parents, grandpa would come to defend Houri.

When Houri bumped and fell, grandpa would comfort the crying Houri.

When Houri became interested in a toy, grandpa would buy that toy just to make Houri happy.

Therefore, Houri also very fond of grandpa.

Even after growing up, Houri can tell others that his favorite person is grandpa.

How would you react when such a person disappeared from your world?

Previously, Houri never considered this issue.

But when he was seven years old, Houri had to consider the matter.

“Uhh… uhuh…”

The sound of crying resounded throughout the space.

There are some who hold back tears, others are unscrupulous, but anyone can feel the sadness and grief inside.

Under that cry, the whole vast space was permeated with a sad atmosphere.

Under that cry, naive children also crying one after another.

Houri was in such an environment, one hand was held by his mother while his gaze was cast in front.

There was a black-and-white photo.

The man in the photo is Houri’s grandpa.

Looking at that photo, Houri really missed grandpa.

Houri knew that everyone around him missed grandpa too, so they cried.

But Houri couldn’t even shed tears.

Even if parents are crying, adults and children around are crying, Houri still cannot cry.

So Houri asked.

“Mom, why are you all crying?”

At that time, mother who was in tears replied to Houri.

“… Because, grandpa will never come back.”

Houri knows.

Houri knows this fact.

Houri knew that grandpa would never return.

But…

“But why do we have to cry?”

When Houri asked such a question, his mother’s expression was a bit surprised and confused.

Then mother answered Houri in this way.

“Grandpa won’t come back, a normal person will feel sad so they will cry.”

Houri didn’t say anything else after hearing this.

But there is a doubt in Houri’s heart.

“A normal person should cry at this time?”

Because of this, Houri asked such a question to sensei at the age of eight.

When he grew up, Houri learned that it was common sense.

A normal person will cry when their loved one dies.

Because it was sad so they grief, which is what a normal person would do.

From a psychological perspective, it is normal when a person’s subjective world and objective world possess the same principle.

Because psychology is a reflection of objective reality, any normal psychological activity and behavior must be consistent with the objective environment, even if it is only in form and content.

When a person’s spirit or psychology loses unity with the external environment, then this person will not understand other people.

At that time, this person will become abnormal.

So from the theoretical point of view, Houri is not a normal person.

That day, Houri did not cry.

When others are sad, Houri’s heart is only calm.

When others take it for granted, Houri only has doubts in his heart.

When others were crying, Houri’s heart has only confusion.

So out of tune that it can even be called cold-hearted. How could it’s not abnormal?

What’s more, the other person raised him from an early age, had a good relationship with him, and was his favorite relative.

Such a person has passed away and will never be seen again. It’s because he is a child that he should be more heart-broken, right?

But from the start to finish, Houri has not felt a shred of grieve or a shred of sadness, not even an impulse to shed tears.

At that time, adults didn’t care about such a matter, only thought that Houri didn’t understand the meaning of death, or was a little mature for one’s age, and was not affected by the children around him crying.

Only Houri understood one thing in a state of ignorance.

That is…

“I am not the same with the people around me…”

That was the only idea that Houri had at the time.

When he grew up, Houri understood why he was like that.

Not only because Houri became more sensible, but also because Houri inevitably experienced the same thing several times.

At that time, Houri also couldn’t cry and couldn’t feel sad.

Then Houri understood.

No matter how important the other person is to himself and how close he is to them, once he or she dies, he will never shed a tear nor feel a little sadness.

It’s not that Houri is ignorant, nor is Houri too cold-hearted.

That’s just a defect.

Houri began to understand at the age of seven, hiding a personality defect deep inside.

“I can’t produce any feelings against someone else’s death…”

So…

“I also can’t produce any feelings for my own death…”

This fact was confirmed when Houri was 18 years old that year.

“Bang-!”

It was a very loud crash.

When a loud sound was heard, Houri only felt that the sky was spinning. When his field of vision was restored, the first thing he see is the sky.

However, the sky gradually became red and slowly replaced with black.

Red appeared because Houri’s iris began to bleed.

Black appeared because Houri’s consciousness began to disappear.

At this moment, Houri just felt that his body was no longer his own. He couldn’t even move, and couldn’t feel anything.

Houri’s only feeling was -hot.

It’s hot.

Very hot.

Whole body is on fever.

In his surroundings, pedestrians began to surround him, appearing in his fuzzy vision.

Houri has no way to hear what they are saying.

However, Houri was able to perceive the panic and fear around him.

And the body that was heating up seemed to be losing something important, and the ground beneath him began to get wet.

Houri turned his head with difficulty and saw the asphalt road nearby.

There, it is gradually dyed red.

Reddened by the blood that comes from his body.

So Houri finally realized.

The important thing that is losing on his own body is not only blood, but also life.

Houri finally realized what was happening.

Car accident.

It was a sudden accident.

More than 100,000 such accidents happen in this country every year.

Houri is just one of the 100,000 accidents this year.

“So it is…”

Houri instantly accepted his fate.

No resentment, no regret, not even fear or resistance.

After all, Houri has no way to produce any emotions toward ‘Death’.

This is a fact that he started to understand at the age of seven.

Now, it’s just confirmed.

Houri only has one thought left in his imminent death.

“Where do people go after they die?”

With such thought, Houri closed his eyes.

The moment Houri completely lost his consciousness, a cold voice filled his mind.

“Number 11273 enters the MainGod space.”

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  • Adypoker
    April 8, 2021 - 8:23 AM · Reply

    Welp, I tried to read it, but changing a story from the original is the not translating it’s creating a fanfiction…

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